One Holy Passion

So every morning Emilynn is in our room after I get her up and she goes straight for the bookcase.  It's her favorite.  But there is one particular book that is her absolute favorite...It's RC Sproul's book One Holy Passion.  It has a bright red cover.  She brings it to us in bed every morning.  I've never read this book and I'm pretty sure it came from Ross' collection, but nevertheless, I have been thinking about it a lot and it always brings the song from Passion to my mind:

One Pure and Holy Passion

Give me one pure and holy passion
Give me one magnificent obsession
Give me one glorious ambition for my life
To know and follow hard after You

Give me one pure and holy passion
Give me on magnificent obsession
Give me one glorious ambition for my life
To know and follow hard after You

To know and follow hard after you
To grow as your dicsiple in your truth
This world is empty, pale, and poor
Compared to knowing you, my Lord
Lead me on and I will run after you
Lead me on and I will run after you

Give me one pure and holy passion
Give me one magnificent obsession
Give me one glorious ambition for my life
To know and follow hard after you
To know and follow hard after you
To grow as your disciple in the truth
This world is empty, pale, and poor
Compared to knowing you my Lord
Lead me on and I will run after you

Lord to know and follow hard after you
And to grow as your disciple in your truth
This world is empty, pale, and poor
Compared to knowing you my Lord
Lead me on and I will run after you
Lead me on and I will run after you
Lead me on and I will run after you

I love this song and often find myself singing it throughout the day...throughout the day as I idolize balance, housework, etc.  Now don't get me wrong, I believe there is certainly a holy place for balance and housework, but I recently read a blog that was talking about balance and idolotry.  This hit home for me.  You all know that I love a schedule and have found my niche as a mom in keeping with my schedule that has created a place of balance for me.  But my question has been, "Is He still my one holy passion? My glorious obcession?"  Lately I have been craving the Word, but found few times to really dig deep into it.  I have wanted so bad to have a BIG conversation with the Lord, but have only created space for lots of small ones.  So, no, He is not my one holy passion.  I desire Him to be, but He is not.  I want to follow hard after only Him and in that create space to be creative, fun, ... a good wife and mom.  But right now, I have it backwards.  I am seeking hard after balance and even in all of that seeking hard after balance, my one holy passion isn't showing Himself to the world through me completely.  He doesn't need space in my life...He needs EVERYTHING in my life. 

Gonna read that book one day too...